I was driving home on Friday afternoon and I'll admit that I was not in a chipper mood. I was frustrated with many things and driving tends to make everything worse.
I was driving on I-35 and this car ahead of me was doing some, we'll say not so smart, driving maneuvers. I was ready to call her dumb or something (it tends to happen when I'm driving) and when I passed her she had a bunch of stickers all over her window. One was a picture of Mary and then other religious art. She also had this stone-set look on her face and I was overwhelmed with compassion for this woman I didn't even know.
It reminded me how many people are out there looking for some form of spirituality and looking in all the wrong places.
They think they will find they're wholeness in some form of religious act when that just fills them with a false sense of satisfaction.
We all think we need to DO something to deserve Gods favor.
This isn't the case at all! "For it is by grace you have been saved and this is NOT YOUR OWN DOING! It is a GIFT from God, lest anyone should boast."
Nothing I could do will ever measure up to Gods standards. All that I can do is admit that I am "wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked" and in desperate need of a savior. That savior is Jesus Christ, the very son of God. He was the perfect sacrifice that allows me access to God the creator and an eternity spent in his glory.
Religious acts will not give you lasting peace, joy, satisfaction or anything you may be looking for. Praying 3 times a day or going to church on Sunday's or reciting prayers or going to confessional or just being a "good person" will not save you from the eternity that we all deserve. It will only leave you with a sense of duty.
My God calls me to a life of service done out of love not of duty and that is where peace, joy and satisfaction come from.
Life is not truly being lived unless it is being lived for the glory of God Almighty. This is what we were made for!

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This is what comes, he says, of giving one's heart to anything but God. All human beings pass away. Do not let your happiness depend on something you may lose. If love is to be a blessing, not a misery, it must be for the only Beloved who will never pass away.

Project Runway

so last night I got upset that Chloe won.
I honestly that that Santino would but was completely going for Daniel V.
Daniel's designs were gorgeous and Santino had a lot of good ones.
Half of the dresses Chloe made were hideous.
  • Current Mood
    disappointed disappointed

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Martha Stewart looks awful with red hair.

I finally have a REAL bed.
It's freaking great.
  • Current Music
    Dr. Phil is on in the break room

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Wednesday night I saw freaking David Crowder.
Definitely the most fun I've ever had at a show before.
Great music, fun people, and worshipping God.
I keep disappointing myself and more importantly the one who means the most to me.
  • Current Music
    David Crowder Band - Do Not Move

the shadows prove the sunshine

I realized that I can be unintentionally standoff-ish sometimes.
I hate the feeling of being replaced and
the realization that I don't have the relationship that I once did with certain people.
I get annoyed when people stand 6 inches away from the elevator door while their waiting to get on and
when they hit the button 5 times when it's already lit.
I don't like when people won't look at me when they pass me in the hall.
I'm working on changing because I don't like what I've become.
I wish sleep was an option because it seems like a waste of time.
That goes for showering as well.
I'm getting stuff in the mail soon.
I wish I was more attractive and fun to be around but
more than that I wish I didn't care.
I want people to see more of Jesus in me.


Matthew 24:6-8

And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not alarmed, for this must take place, but the end is not yet. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom, and there will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are but the beginning of the birth pains.